I used to hate this side of myself too. But I've learned to accept it. It's just something you love and if wearing diapers makes you happy then you shouldn't try and stop what gives you joy.
Diapers aren't all that bad compared to some other stuff such as drugs, cigs and even other fetishes that are out there.
Our love for diapers and wearing them is harmless.
Although you have to be 18 to join there are a few forums that you can read through that have many others like us who enjoy diapers.
One is
http://adisc.org and the other one I know of is
http://dailydiapers.com