Great question.
I would rather shit myself every time I cum instead of saying the N word randomly in 5 % of conversations from now on.
If I was gonna cum, I would be doing it in private and not in front of anyone else.
I used to have a black friend that I was in elementary school with and he used to greet me as saying hey white "N" word, hows it going?
He would say the actual word and I would also say the actual word back to him and say doing fine black "N" word.
A lot of people couldn't believe we were saying that and we both would be smiling and laughing when we saw each other every morning at school and while we said that to each other.
We weren't saying it to be mean to each other and instead would say it to see other peoples reactions, which gave us both joy.