Yes I am terrified of ending up in a nursing home one day and not the actual dying.
I have no fear of death and actually look forward to it.
However I hope that when my death occurs that it's without my knowledge and painless and quick.
I have had relatives in nursing homes and it's a terrible place to be and it's very depressing and really most of the nursing home workers do not really care about the patients.
There are a few nurses in nursing home that do actually care about the patients but not all of them.
I would rather be murdered than live in a nursing home the rest of my days needing care.
If I got to the point of needing nursing home care I would do away with myself first or at least go out into the woods and die of starvation first.
Nursing homes are not good places to be and once I would need a nursing home then my life is not of good quality anymore anyway.
No point in living if you're gonna need a lot of care to get by.